Monday, 31 December 2007

2007 and its Almost over

I'm glad that 2007 is almost over! I have found this year the hardest ever in my life.
I have had so many highs and lows.
The highs of being asked to teach at my local scrapping store, the high of getting a new car, and the high of hopefully being published.
The low of financial difficultly with Lance changing jobs. And of course the biggest low ever was losing my brother in August.
The sense of missing him has been heighten over this month, first being my birthday and not be able to hear him wish me happy birthday, I felt the whole day that I was missing something. Christmas made it hard too, even though we had a brilliant day, there was alway a lingering thought in the back of my mind that he was missing, and now there is tonight, not ringing each other to wish a Happy New Year.
These and other moment that are normally spent with family seem so hard. As I sit here writing this it give me time to reflect on how much of a great brother he was at "times".....yes thats right at times.....Baby brother can really push your buttons and he use to be our trouble maker. I remember him for all the good times we had and I think to myself that I'm proud to be his big sister and that even in death no one can take that way from me.
I say to 2007 good bye and I say another good bye to my brother tonight.....I miss you so Chris and in my heart you are always so near.
And hello 2008 I do not know what you have installed for me or my family, but I say bring it cant be as cruel as 2007.....Oh and 2008 I'm a stronger person watch out!!!

Thursday, 27 December 2007

Chirstmas And Another Year Almost Over.

Well Christmas 2007 is over, and to my surprise its had been a brilliant Christmas day..... Other then me falling ill after lunch, just being with family was the best medicine for all of us!

I had been dreading Christmas day for awhile knowing that not having my Baby brother Christopher ringing us all to wish A Merry Christmas hard to comprehend, plus mum received some gorgeous gifts that tribute my brother, I thought that the day would be filled with tears. But to my surprise we had tears during the unwrapping of gifts then it was a blast from there on in.

My kids like always got spoilt rotten from Santa, there was a pool, DS lites for the eldest, Barbie's Bratz, and all sort of stuff being opened. It was great to see smile's on my babies faces and the occasional scream of joy from opening there gifts. Christmas is for children and when they wake up in the morning and see all the presents under Christmas tree and there little eye's just light up with joy, it means all the running round and money was well worth it.

I really enjoy this time of the year. It means time to relax, time to reflect, it means time to spend with family and friends. After having a pretty bad year.....or should I say Half a bad year... I cant wait for 2008 to come on down....The days are already looking brighter!!

Saturday, 15 December 2007


Well its that time of the year again.....another year older am I....LOL

This year for my 35th birthday we had a open night at our house....The kids were being looked after by Lances parents, and I wasn't real fussed if we did anything or not......Well lets say we ended up doing something. Friends came round, my sister came round and it was cocktails for all...LOL

Saturday, 8 December 2007

WOW!! I'm just blown away!!

This evening I just got the best email ever!!!

When I opened the email I just started to scream, Lance had thought that I had cut myself being in the study and scrapping.
I received an email from Scrapbooking Memories, one of Australia's leading scrapping magazines. Asking me if I would like to submit my Kaiser clock I had not long finished making.
I have been trying all this year to have something submitted in to the 3 Aussie scrapping magazines I read, and every time I sent an email to them showing my work I always got a knock backs, but see what happens when your persistent!!

Friday, 7 December 2007

Many Projects

Over the last two months I may not have been blogging much but I have been scrapping. It seemed right to get back into my scrapping and with a nice little push from two of my dearest friends Kaylene and Cheryl they got the ball rolling for me again!!

Here are some of my latests creations.

Canvas Art

Trading cards

Some Chrissy Projects!

Love Album

Naughty But Nice (Accordion Album)

Natural Beauty


Silly Girl

Growing Up

What a Face

My Basket Case


I know I always say the I am proud of my kids and that to me they are my world!! and today I'm just reinforcing how proud I am of Shannon.

Tonight he had his big end of year combine school concert at our major entertainment center. I was just like all the other proud parent sitting in the stadium, totally amazed by the talent of our children! Its was amazing see over 300 children sing and play music from classical to modern. There was a few squeak notes but hey there children age 10 -12 playing a various instruments and they gave it a really good damn go!!!
This concert seem so important to Shannon as this is his last year in the combine school band, and I was proud to be there supporting him!!

Next year he is off to start is journey into high school and I know that its like starting school all over again. On Wednesday he had is orientation day and parents were invited to attend an assembly and then afterwards join teacher for a morning tea, plus have the opportunity to buy there school uniforms, of course I jumped at the chance. That afternoon I had to see what he was going to look like.

Look at my Little man all grown up!!

Saturday, 1 December 2007

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

Sorry I have been absent and not here for you!! Time as gotten away from me other the last month. Like a said before I have ventured back into the scrapping world, and done some layouts and other off the page projects. But between scrapping, taking care of my family and also my parents, time just seems to be slipping away from me. By the time I think to jump on the computer, I just get time to check my emails and that all it seems to be. I've missed you blog and I have so much to tell you. The question now is where to start????

As I previously posted I have been scrapping and I have many a things to post on here to show the world.

I have had some trying times mentally and physically over the last month. My mum has had a terrible month with issues about my brother, and with the court case in hand it seemed to bring everything home again and wounds open up again. I could tell that my parents were scream out for help and there was no one there for them. So I took it into my hands to find them help. I rang the victims of crime here in Tasmania and asked them to help me, help my parent. I was finding it hard to parent my parents and I felt it draining on me and also taking over my grieving process. I feel at time I just need to get on with my life and do what I need to do and care about myself at time, I know that it may seem selfish but I seem to handle the fact of losing my brother better this way. I have such a great bond with Lance and my child and they make such a good distraction for me. That having mum and dad drag up there issue about losing Chris, hard for me to cope with! I don't feel the lose of my brother the way they do and I had know idea how to comfort them that I just shut myself way from them. But I am glad that they did come to me for help and I could do everything in my powers to find help for them. I know that the next few months even years are going to be like this, but knowing that I'm there for them must be comforting to them as I know it is for me know that they are there for me.

I'm back to playing netball once a week on a Wednesday night and that has been putting pressure on my week and my tired old body....LOL the and ankle injury flairs up every now and then and my legs ache the next day from playing on such a hard surface!! But hey these are the sacrifice I make to have an hour of fun and glory at times....LOL

I am also finally back to teaching at Scrapper heaven and had my first class last Monday. It was great to be back and sharing my knowledge of this wonderful craft I love to do in my spare time.
I finally had the chance to teach my lovely canvas I made of Sarah. It was brilliant at the end of the night to see versions of my mater piece walk out the door with some very happy ladies.

For my scrapping capers I have been very busy scrapping cards of late ( specially Christmas cards) I have also done some wonderful off the page projects, for Christmas, the main ones being beautiful Kaiser products!!

I've missed blogging and expression my feeling and showing off my pieces of art work!!
Let hope that life can settle down a bit so I can spend more time on here and tell the world whats been happening with my life!!

XXX Kylie

Monday, 29 October 2007

No Blogging

Well as you can tell I haven't been blogging in awhile and its a shame. I have been scrapping again and have some mighty damn good layouts to put on....(if I say so myself......LOL)
I have applied for a another DT position at another scrapping site I'm on and also I have been busy with my family doing the usual family things.

So this next month will be a catching up month for me, and I will endeavor to get my act together and do a bit of blogging this week in between scrapping and getting ready for a class at the end of the month! Thats right I finally made the decision to go back to teaching again and my first class back will be at the end of next month, I will finally be doing my altered canvas class that I know a few of the ladies at work have been itching for me to come back and teach!

It's funny that of a Monday my day seems to be taken up with so much house work and general tidying and sorting....I think its the time of the week were I try to get over the weekend with DH and the kids home, this place can sort of get a bit untidy and out of sorts..... Aslo I can get it ship shape for the week so I can have some me time!!....So its back to the grind for me...LOL

Sunday, 7 October 2007

KSK Guest Design Team Layout

About 2 months ago I was asked if I would like to do a layout for Karen Scrapping Kupboard as a Guest Design team member, and I jumped at the chance to work with new product and show my scrapping to other scrappers.
I finally scrapped last night after having months off and this is what I came up with using the new Daisy Bucket Paper and these very painful but fun Embelleez beadz.

This new range of Daisy Bucket paper are for Christmas and this layout just shows that Christmas doesn't always have to be the traditional reds and greens.

Sunday, 30 September 2007

The Brighter Side To Life!!

After having a crappy week, I have decided this morning that everything has to get better.

Yesterday, I had a brilliant day and it has made me realise that life is great and you have to make it great by doing what you want and also enjoying every moment!!!

So today on my blog I'm going to tell you all about the brilliant time I had in Somerset and also the most rocking time I has yesterday, starting with the AFL grand final and also the amazing rock concert I went to last night with my brother, Anthony!!!

So sit back and enjoy seeing the fun side to my life which I love and appreciate right now!!!

It was so cool seeing these guys in concert and to Blow our minds even more Paul Mac was playing with Silverchair!!!

There is nothing better then seeing a band live and rocking out to some amazing music!!!!!

Our Trip To Somerset ,To The Girls

17th of September


On Sunday night the night before leaving to see the girls up north, I was busy packing for the kids and I. I knew that we would have to hit the road early so it meant that the packing had to be done the day before. After finally packing, it was time to settle the kids and get them off to bed so that the trip wouldn't be to much for them.....Well lets just say they found it hard to sleep and so did I. We were all nervous, I was nervous because I have never driven so far before and for so long. I was also nervous about taking my new car on such a long drive. (but I was so glad we were traveling in it and not my old bomb....LOL)
We hit the road at 8 and there was no turning back now. On the way up we played the old game of how many road kill were on the side of the road......(total 19 that was up and back.....LOL)
We stopped twice on our 3-4 hour drive, once at Campbell Town and that was at 9.30. The kids loved getting out of the car for a half hour rest and I appreciated the break as my Bum was getting numb already...LOL (oh I forgot we had to have an emergency loo break for Sarah she as busting to go it was a good thing I packed the potty and the was just before we got to Ross....LOL)

It was time to hit the road again and this time we were going to try and do the rest of the trip with out any more stops (well thats what I thought...LOL)
We got as far as Latrobe and we has to pull over, my ass was beginning to go numb again and Grace was busting to go to the loo. Latrobe is a pretty little town they has only one main road and you wouldn't believe it I couldn't find the toilets and some were for the kids to have a play. So we stopped at the first shop there and asked for for directions. The lady at the shop was lovely and gave us a loaf of bread for the kids to feed the duck at the river. So this was a last stop. I rang Alli to tell her where we were and she said that we were only 45 minutes away from Somerset and that just blew my mind.....So it was a quick feed the ducks, eat an icy pole and toilet break and then it was on the road again.
We finally arrived at Allison's house at 1.30 and it was a blow out. I had seen Alli's house only in photo's and to be there sitting inside her house and having lunch was unreal. I so do love your house Alli, its so homely and well loved.... :D I also got to me the infamous Dwayne (Alli's Hubby) Dwayne is lovely and friendly. I also got to meet Alli's mother inlaw and also Alli's son Blake who is a lovely boy too. I can see a friendship between our to families for a long time.
It was great to be there with Allison and her family and to just relax and have a coffee after such a long drive. We sat around for a good part of the afternoon chatting and catching up then it was almost time to head to Marion's house. But before we did that Alli took us to the beach to get some pics and also to a park for the kids to have a bit of a play.
When we got to Marion's place it was time to unpack the car and get the kids settled before the Drinking began. My children were wrapped to spend time with Marion's girls as the last time they were down here they had visiting to do and didn't get much time with them. Tracey and her hubby and kids were coming up after dinner and there was going to be a goog time had by all...hehehe
Mazz and I popped out to the shop while Alli and Gazz stayed home with the kids, so I got to see the main drag of Somerset. (one street town....hehehehe I'm such a city slicker....LOL)
While down the road Mazz showed me the Stamping Bug which is the girls scrapping store up there. It was exciting knowing that the next day we were going there and doing some shopping.
When we arrive back from being down the road I was surprised to see that Tracey was already there, and even though I told Tracey not to be nervous with meeting me....I suddenly had nerves meeting her...LOL. I walked into Marion's house with a bit of shyness, but hey after a few cruisers, Tracey and I got to talking and she is one brilliant chick. She has a great partner (Mick) and he was great fun to be around and I got to meet 3 of Tracey gorgeous children that she is alway scrapping about. Mazz's house was crowed with 11 kids and 7 adults and we had a blast taking pics of each other sharing a couple of drinks and having a good old sing on singstar....hehehehe (oh I have some videos of that to share with everyone....LOL)

The 3 Sarah's Alli's Sarah, My Sarah and Marion's Sarah


After waking up the next morning tired from the night before( and you can I tell why....LOL)
The girls had the day planned out for us.....It was breakfast first then Mazz, Alli and I were off to the Stamping bug, Gazz stayed at Mazz's with the tribe. I was like a kid in a candy store see all the gorgeous product that the stamping bug had. I just keep piling items on to the counter and was not keeping track of how much I was spending.....(Oh and it didn't help that the girls keep showing me more new stuff..LOL) Well $160 later I we walked out of there with smile's on our faces...hehehe
Then we came home packed the kids into two cars and head off to Devonport for some more scrap shopping and also to feed the kids at Hungry Jacks and take them to a play area up there called Jungle Gym's, While Alli and I went to Bev's for some more retail therapy, Mazz and Gary Stayed with the kids and watching them run round like chickens with there heads cut off. Alli and I had a blast at Bev's and I thought that I was quite a good girl and didnt spends as much money as I thought I would. (mmm is another $80 on top of $160 before....LOL)
Any way after spending an hour at Bev's we came and rescued Mazz and Gazz from the kids....It was funny they had just finished a coffee and the kids hadn't needed them at all....It was funny to see there read faced on the trip back home to Marion's the kids were quite and well worn out. That night at Marion's we just chilled and I got to catch up with Maryanne which was great.


Today was my last day with the girls and I felt sad to leave them!! knowing that I would get to catch up with them in ages was hard to come to terms with. I just couldn't believe how fast the time has gone. The kids were already talking about our next trip up there and they were all excited. Marion's and Alli's kid keep asking when they were coming down to see us...LOL
Alli had the morning planned for us before we left. We were going into Burnie to see her sisters gift store, Alli works there on the weekend and on days when she is needed. Gay's shop was amazing. It sold beautiful gift items and they were just putting out there new Christmas decs. Oh course i had to buy something there. So I brought some gorgeous chocolates for Lance and I brought myself a beautiful Christmas dec and a scented candle. It was cool going into Burnie for the morning it was just a shame the weather has turned crappy and that we need to hit the highway early because of a road closure. I would of loved to have spent more time with Alli walking around Burnie and seeing the sites of there city. As I followed Alli out of Burnie and on to the highway, I felt my heart go heavy. It was hard leaving the girls behind. I know that I have made friends for life with these girls and that I will treasure every moment with them!!!

Thursday, 27 September 2007

No Scrapping

Since the death of my brother I seem to not be able to scrap. When I think I can I just sit at my desk and nothing happens.
At this moment in time all I want to do is sit of an evening with Lance on the lounge and be comforted by the presence of him.
I have this urgency of scrapping an album for my brother and I cant even bring myself to do that. I worry that my work wont be good enough, that the journaling will be to hard. That the memories will be to painful......... I know that I have wonderful memories to cherish but the fear of cocking this up make me feel scared to even attempt to work on his album.
I hope that it will all charm down and I can put onto paper the feeling that I have for my baby brother and the memories I have to share with my children and that its perfect for me to treasure.


Tonight everything seems to be unfair.

This week I should of been on here writing about our trip up north to be with the girls there and instead I'm going to be writing about how unfair the world seems to be right now.
On the weekend there was a Murder here in Hobart, and being so close to home I felt worried and then when I was told on Sunday night that it was a mum from my children's school it made everything seem so wrong in the world. I felt a panic come over my body and it made me feel unsafe and not wanting to leave my house. I know that I couldn't do that and that I couldn't show my children the fear I felt at this time. If it wasn't for Lance and my children I would lock myself in my room and not leave or talk to anyone. The fear that swells inside me now is scaring me and I'm trying to be brave....But I am finding it so hard.

Today was the funeral for our dear friend and fellow member of our school community and I was asked if I would like to go. But I said no...The time between this shocking news and losing my Brother is just to much to handle. I knew that I couldnt be strong for the other mothers that would of been there and I knew that I wasnt strong enough for myself.

Everything seems to be so unfair right now.....Where are all the good people gone in the world.....Can someone tell me?????
I need something bright in my life right now and it seem that nothing is there.
How can I feel normal when bad things are happening like this.. Please tell me WHY??????

Saturday, 15 September 2007

Normality is the key

I have been finding that normality is the key right now I need for the healing process to start.

When I'm sitting around doing nothing it makes my mind wonder, then I have those questions again like why and is this all real.
I feel this hole in my heart right now and it makes it ache and then the tears fill my eyes. The lost of a brother seems so hard and it nothing I have ever felt before and wish never to feel this again. A link in our family has been taken away and I can feel it missing very day.
I was reading something the other day about grieving and it said that there are normally seven stages to grieving and I think I have been through them all and some of them seem to creep back in at time. I know that these feeling will be here for a while, and that is why I have made a conscious effort to get some normality back into my life. I sometimes wonder is it to soon, should I still be mourning the death of my brother. But as I said before in my last post that life still has to go on and if that means getting on with the normal things in life, then that is what I have to do.

I have just had the kids off on their first week of school holidays and I've noticed that having them home has brightened my day and they have made my mind more active in a positive way.
Before losing Chris the kids and I had organised a trip to go up north to meet up with Alli, Marion and Tracey and stay at Marion's place for a couple of nights. I was going to cancel it feeling the way I have been feeling. But luckily enough the girls said to still come and spend time away and have fun. Lance and I decided that we should still go and enjoy there company and plus it is a great way for me to spend more time with my wonderful children. So on Monday morning the kids and I will be leaving here at 8 o clock in the morning and we will be heading north.
So watch out girls the Cornish Tribe is on its way....LOL

Sunday, 9 September 2007

A good Day today!!

I seemed to have a good day today, life went on as normal and things rolled along nicely today!

Since the lost of my brother I have been finding it hard to get my head wrapped around getting on with life. At time I have this guilty feeling in my stomach and it makes me wonder if I should be doing what I am doing. But I know that if my brother was here with me he would say "stop being stupid and get on with the things your have to do".

After putting the photo tribute on here I had a really bad night and sat in bed crying and crying. I couldn't wrap my head around what had happen to him and also that he was gone......The big question is WHY all the time. I know that no one can answer it for me and that I should cherish every moment we had together and never forget what a great life he had and how much he love me and my children.

The fears that I have at this moment is that I will forget how he sounds......I had only talked to him on the phone a month ago and he sounded so great, and he told me that he was doing so well in Perth. The thought that I cant talk to him anymore scares me!

I know keep a journal and I write to Chris every night, just telling him of our day and the feeling I have inside for him. I feel as though I need to do this for myself and for Chris so that he know that I wont forget him and that I will love him like a big sister always.

Saturday, 8 September 2007

Letters to my brother

These are the last messages my babies had for there Uncle Christopher.

They just prove the fact that they love him as much as me !

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