Monday, 12 May 2008

Emotional Wreck

What a couple of months I have had...I have been up and I have been down...I suppose this is why they call life a roller coaster.
I have had several break downs and quite a few highs.
The break downs have shown me that I'm not that tough and that not everything can be fixed or not everything will go away (thought I was losing my marbles). I have had to deal with bringing up emotions again about the death of my brother. I have also had to deal with that little green eyed monster that inside of me towards my husband. I've had to deal with trust issues, I have also had to deal with the pressure of work and gaining the confident in meeting dead line and achieving goals and I have had to be emotional rock for some of my friends around me.

I think last two months I have never felt so tired and so drained. I have felt like locking myself away and running from all the decisions and discussions but I didn't. Until I broke down one night and lied everything out there did I get my head around all the emotions that have been trapped in my head and in my heart. With the support of Lance and my friends have I learnt to relax and not take on so much on by myself and that everyone was there for me, all I had to do was ask, I do feel the pressure releasing. I have giving myself a break from all my commitments on the internet, I have also taken some time away from my personal scrapping to get on with my work commitments done first. I have also taken valuable time to spend with my husband, my family and friends.

I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel!!

With the highs over the last few months I have completed gorgeous projects for classes and I completed "some" personal scrapping, I have been working on a mini album about our Melbourne retreat and I have only one more photo to place and then the journaling to do and I have completed that.
I have also been asked to have an active roll in organising items for the retreat we are having with work at the end of this month. This will be such a great weekend and I feel very privilege to be apart of it all!
I have also had my first publications posted in Scrapbooking Memories. My Kaiser Family Time clock looks so good in there and it is a great feeling!
I have also had the high of having a blast with friends on the weekends and spending some great valuable time with them, and I also had a wonderful scrapping day with Kaylene, Jo and Cheryl. "Thanks girls for giving a really enjoyable day"
I have also had some wonderful quite nights with Lance and I think that we really have need this time together, just being able to talk and spend time together strengthen our relationship even more! " Thanks Lance for being there with me while I was going quietly insane"

Its funny when Life is starting to feel like it is getting to hard...remember that the good times will shine through and you can get through it...it just takes time and it also takes patience. Step out of the trouble and misery and look around...you will find the answer I sure did and I'm feeling better for it!

But hey I'm still on holidays from certain thing in my life....I will be back just give me some time!!

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